What Lies Beyond

the envy of the day, the grin of the night. It is as horrifying as it is fractured, the eternity hunts me relentlessly. past findings, based on ignorance, are now guiding my hands. the “I” was my reason to push through, left or right decided by me. but cherubim’s smile was extinct, as my disintegrations only way, became the arms of a fallen. my venus’ wings, as they yielded me through hell, power vanished, as the abyss open up beneath, and took the most precious off of her. who, if not I, is licit to entreat. you voices, hear my call. the call of my heart. the call of an empty.

between the dead and the remembered, covered by the clouds above.
as the snow sinks down, I’m reflecting on the ones I love.

my family, my heart. my legacy, my eternal thoughts.
on their own, they will be. on their own, they will see.

please forgive me for not standing by your side.
time has made other plans, nothing more to strive.

tonight, you’ll see, twisted realities.
to where I ascend, without my demand,
shall be my grave to rest.

with all the hearts that surround me, all those colors made to fade,
my thoughts are running wild, I’m struggling to be brave.

all control was taken from me, with so much to say, but no time left to speak.

you’ll never hear my words.

tonight, you’ll see, twisted realities.
to where I ascend, without my demand,
shall be my grave to rest.

I see those red eyes, they take me away,
from where I belong, where my hearts meant to stay.
I’ve lost all control, my life’s in your hands,
I want to say goodbye, but I am giving in.

tonight, you’ll see, twisted realities.
to where I ascend, without my demand,
shall be my grave to rest.

with you I was finally strong, able to take on the world beyond.
with no fear and nothing to miss, I knew that girl staring back at me was meant for me.

but now I’m drowning in a black wave of grief, no power left to swim.
I need my poison to sustain in this forsaken life, but I’m still on my own…

and left here screaming in vain!
will I ever know, why my love had to go?

and now I’m trapped within my own, this seems to be, where I belong.
in the middle of my mess, I’m writing these lines to confess… I’m not alright.

time went on, I couldn’t leave you behind. I thought I numbed the pain.
as I fell back in time, remembering, reliving the days.

we were sitting on a seaside, letting the river speak.
we watched the stars, witnesses of our lost love.
while I’m thinking back, I can see your eyes. these deep blue eyes.

and I can see them now, as I hear your words.
echoing through my nightmares, leaving me alone and cold.

and now I’m trapped within my own, this seems to be, where I belong.
in the middle of my mess, I’m writing these lines to confess… I’m not alright.

I’m afraid to sleep, got no strength left to walk.
you lied to me, lied to me, as you promised me this was alright.

but you don’t know how it feels,
to be imprisoned, lost and lonely. to still be haunted in your dreams.

I’m paralyzed! in my own hell.
can’t you see? why can‘t you see?
how I suffer in my sleep. nightmares awaiting me.
why can’t you see? why can’t you see!?

I’ve begged to overcome, my soul’s on the line.
I’m sorry mother, please forgive me father.

but you don’t know how it feels,
to be imprisoned, lost and lonely. to still be haunted in your dreams.

why can’t you see how I’m lost and lonely.
please set me free and wake me from my dream!
why can’t you see how I’m lost and lonely.
please set me free and wake me from my dream!

I’m drowning in a black wave,
leaving me alone & cold.
no time left to speak,
I’ve lost all control.

I‘m screaming out, my last endeavor.
Oh, am I stuck in this forever?
I‘m caught in between.
what should I do? where should I go?
with no voice left to sing.

this eerie feeling burns inside me like it never did before.
all these colors and the sirens revolving calmy nevermore.
this poorly pounding heart buried in my chest to see
how I’m lost and long forgotten, never meant to be set free.

but your smile takes it away
and your eyes they comfort me.
for the shiver that’s surrounding
there’s no pain here left to see.

remnants of a time once bright
like ember burning through the night.
memories are taking me to where I’ll never be.
please hold my hand, so I never feel alone – alone again.

now the darkness has arrived,
as it works its way in here.
from the stars that shine within
to the clouds carrying away.

vibrant blue turns into red,
love and hope change into fear.
from a place where I felt happy
gone to anywhere but here.

but your smile takes it away
and your eyes they comfort me.
for the shiver that’s surrounding
there’s no pain here left to see.

remnants of a time once bright
like ember burning through the night.
memories are taking me to where I’ll never be.
please hold my hand, so I never feel alone – alone again.

your graceful love, now just a hurting memory.
your eyes turned red and I can’t find my way.

please let me free, I can’t take it no more.
left alone in a dark sea.
pressure’s built, death’s around. I can hear his breath.
he lies in wait for me.

please set me free. I can‘t take it no more.
left alone in a dark sea.
pressure’s built, death’s around. I can hear his breath.
he lies in wait for me.

how should I take a step when my bridges are burned.
when the tide is rising, oh darling, I’m concerned that…

all is lost, endless black. got no chance to escape
this horrible nightmare.
retracing my steps with no room to breathe.
from left to right, all I feel is hate beneath.

he has taken all I love. can someone hear my words? I‘m alone (my picture perfect.)

please set me free. I can‘t take it no more.
left alone in a dark sea.
pressure’s built, death’s around. I can hear his breath.
he lies in wait for me.

welcome to my world, where everything is dark. you won‘t find your light no more.

please set me free. I can‘t take it no more.
left alone in a dark sea.
pressure’s built, death’s around. I can hear his breath.
he lies in wait for me.

the time has come. I’ve met my biggest fear. as we are face to face the shadow reveals what was hidden from my knowledge for so long. I mistreated my family, I have lied and I have deceived many on my way. hailey,… why couldn’t I see? when you needed my hand the most I hesitated. oh my love… everything in these woods has changed. it is a typical forest no more. where once have been so many trees, like silhouettes piercing through the fog, there’s only one left. It’s so surreal. he promises me hope. he said I would get another chance to live. but where should I go? i got to make a choice… if not for myself, then for her.

all these feelings inside, they are polluting my mind.
the worst is yet to come.
now I know that I’m the one, to blame for this chaotic mess.
the grief has grabbed on to me.

but it’s your smile, that drags me in.
being alive or caught between.
and it’s our past that holds me back.
now it’s the time I have to take a step.

even if we can’t be together
I don’t want to lose her forever.
I’m caught in between.
what should I do? where should I go?
with no voice left to sing.

I tried to speak, but my tongue was cut.
I wanted to run, but my feet were wounded.
I strived to love, but my heart was broken.
I begged to live, but there’s no comfort in living anymore.

even if we can’t be together
I don’t want to lose her forever.
I’m caught in between.
what should I do? where should I go?
with no voice left to sing.

after all those times I’ve been released.
would you wait for me to be one again?
after all those times I’ve been released.
would you wait for me to be one again?

I have waited so long,
suffered countless nights.
I will make a move
and find my way to the light.

the way was hard, but it was worth the risk.
soon we’ll be face to face. everything is tranquil.

after all those times I’ve been released.
would you wait for me to be one again?
after all those times I’ve been released.
would you wait for me to be one again?

the clocks stopped counting the time,
the world around me is numb.
I start drifting away.
memories overcome.

now my clarity’s gone.
tell me am I insane?
as the fog rises up
it drags me down.
I’m lost and fading.
I’m reaching out
to forever.

after all those times I’ve been released.
would you wait for me to be one again?
after all those times I’ve been released.
would you wait for me to be one again?

so cold and heartless he took me with him on a journey. they say, winter will leave one day, the entry of spring shall banish him and keep him locked up in his prison cell. but what if spring is no more and no one, yeah no one will be able to call a halt on the bleakness’ demonic wings. the seraph‘s grief lingered upon distant shores as I strayed from my path. lost forever. my chance was gone. agony bursts into fire again. the eyes of the dead, red and awful, promising darkness – they returned and took my dearest from me. who, if not I, is licit to entreat. you voices will not hear my call anymore. the call of my heart. I shall burn forever in my elegy of the empty.

the days move slow, but the months pass fast.
if I only had more time with you. (I yearn for solace, you left too soon.)
imprisoned by the darkness of another realm
paralyzed as I’m trapped within this hell.

I fear the sun, I’m one with the night. wounds won’t heal and I look up to the sky.
but I can’t see, what lies before me when my light’s been taken away.

drench me in oil and light me ablaze. oh how often have I thought of this phrase.
drifting off course, away from the shore. my guiding light, nevermore.

I beg for death, beg to be free. the thought of a future without you scares me.
nothing more than a call in the distance. lost in a void, a shallow existence.

I’m calling out. a shadow in the breeze.
I’m calling out. lost in the memories.
holding on. holding out.
walking on. fading out.

Now I sing my lullaby alone.

I fear the sun, I’m one with the night. Wounds won’t heal and I look up to the sky.
But I can’t see, what lies before me when my light’s been taken away.
(Holding on. Holding out. Walking on. Fading out.)

The emptiness won’t devour me!
Wandering, longing for a brighter existence.
Left alone, hopes up high to find my peace.
Leaving this town behind, where no one knows my face.

Death’s breathing down my neck, as I push the pedal.
Relief follows sorrow, at least that is what they say.

I’m tired of living in pain.
drowning in sorrow.
Ash to ash.
Dust to dust.

And so I ran, so far away with wounds still bleeding.
A song in the wind, A memory.
so far away. Silhouette in the distance,
It sings and sways In another life.

Pushing the boundaries, pushing through Is there a world beyond?
Will I ever find a place to rest?
I’m dead and gone.

I’m tired of living in pain.
drowning in sorrow.
Ash to ash
Dust to dust

’cause what is love, other than an empty lie. What is life, other than a ghost in the wind. I’m no longer lost in the vastness.
For I have been reborn.

I no longer feel alive Burning up
Burning up on the inside

Give me more, give me more of the poison
Another drink, another drink to numb my mind
cause when I fade away
I will do so in a ball of flame
`cause when I fade away
I fade away from the gray

Do you want to know the truth?
Read the story from my cuts and wounds.

But you could never see
How the burden slowly buries me.

I don’t know how often I died
Again and again drowning in my mind. A broken life sure does feel endless Pulling away from the surface

Nowhere to go or to hide
Forever lost in the night Intoxicated and heartless
Alone in the midst of my darkness

In the midst of my darkness In the midst of my darkness

`cause when I fade away
I will do so in a ball of flame
`cause when I fade away
I fade away from the gray

for there is no god (there is no god)

Lie to me, lie to me.
I know that this can’t be the truth. Sinking down to my demise.
I’m suffocating.

All alone, all alone.
I’m crawling further from hope. Let me be, let me die.
Let me fly.

Mutilated, desecrated.
Faster and faster, into disaster

A parasite in my lullaby
I know this can’t be alright Sinking further into madness. Into my divide.

A parasite in my lullaby
I’m just a child with my mother’s eyes.
Tarnished by words unspoken
Now there’s a void where my heart should’ve been.

As he takes your place
Death stands where life once did.
I remember when shadows were security.

No way back to what was lost
Desecrated and left bleeding out.
The rain has stopped but I still hear it falling aloud.

Aaaah.
I’m falling into the dark.
Into the dark. Perpetrator. Perpetrator.

With every sunrise I get another day to life, But just as time moves on I cannot.
Like a weight that’s pulling you down,
A demon came to steal your crown.

Say “Hi!” to you family from me.
I’m sure you’ll be fine, up there.
Can you see me mourning at your stone? Waiting for me to come home, too?

Rain pouring down on my head, I’m left alone.
Searching for answers,
When all I know,
Is shattered and broken I’m left to die.

Carrying a mark on my soul, A knife in my heart.
Once stood for light,
Now tears me apart.
Please take me back, To where we had it all.

I’m standing on the edge, in solitude and fear. For the voices around me have driven me here. This feeling crawling in my skin,
Something looming deep within.

The fog’s closing in, as the hymn of the night Is the only sound I hear.

Leave me forever, it’s time to go. Nothing really matters anymore.
You took all my dearest from me,
The time has come to dethrone the king.

Rain pouring down on my head, I’m left alone.
Searching for answers,
When all I know,

Is shattered and broken I’m left to die.

Carrying a mark on my soul, A knife in my heart.
Once stood for light,
Now tears me apart.

May the blood on my sword Be the blood of a king.